[Even as the topic shifts right back into unpleasant waters, Lup feels much more secure now with Taako's cheek mashed into her head, the steady beat of his heart in her ear. For how long it took them to find their steady footing again, she feels like they've finally made it, every familiar piece slotting into place again.
It's what Lup expected, honestly, and maybe it's even a little of what Lucretia deserves, but all of that is between her brother and her friend. After what he went through, Lup wouldn't dream of forcing the other woman on Taako so soon. Lucretia may hurt now, but he had to live years hurting alone. They'll figure it out in time. They can wait until Taako is ready.]
Taako, you know I'm not going anywhere, right? I may spend time over there, but this is my home. [Lup doesn't gesture to the room, she only squeezes his hand, right where their fingers are intertwined. He's her home.] I know you're only asking cause you want to move in your reaper boy-toy in my place, but it just isn't happening, bro. Lup is here to stay.
[Ready is a strong word, Lup, and she of all people should get that. He's never ready. He's not going to be. Lucretia remains that remnant of that person she made him into, that piece left fragmented from Lup that she could never truly understand. To him, Lucretia is the barrier between them. How can he be ready to confront that? How could he want to?
But he snickers in response, hopefully proof enough that he's brushing off the seriousness of the question.]
Yeah, because Krav wants to be anywhere near the dick squad. No thanks.
[But he does keep their hands close. Fingers locked. The steady bridge between their beating hearts.]
You better be. 'Mm not losing you again. Especially to her.
[He won't let Lucretia build that wall again. He just won't.]
[Lup knows it's a long shot, to think that Taako would ever really forgive Lucretia and be ready to go back to the way they were before, but she has to believe their family won't stay fragmented like this forever. She just has to.]
You say that like I had a choice. [As if Lup would want to be anywhere else. Their new home is an absolute nightmare and she has adored almost every second of it.] But I'll add that to my list of ways to torment him in the future. Thanks.
[Lup settles against her twin and closes her eyes, focusing in on the familiarity that always rushes through her when he's nearby. His steady breathing, the beating of his heart, the warmth of his palm against hers. Lup loves Lucretia. Has never had a female friend she's been as closely intertwined with, both before their journey or during her time in Hadriel. And she hasn't experienced what she will in the future nor has she met the woman that Lucretia will inevitably become, but that doesn't change the fact they are family and she'd do just about anything for the other woman.
But even that love and loyalty doesn't stop the firmness of Lup's tone when she answers.]
You won't lose me again, Taako. Not to anyone, but especially not to her. I promise. She can't touch us.
[He squeezes her hands as she speaks, letting his breath hitch just a moment that only she can hear. Lucretia is beyond complicated for him now, a hundred years all but scrapped in affection between them. If she didn't think he deserved those memories, she can keep them. He just wants Lup. He just wants to be whole again.
He can feel the emotion creeping up his throat, so he pulls back, chuckling at her quietly.]
Nobody can fuckin' touch us.
[He'll never let anyone do that again.]
C'mon. It's still early. Pretty sure we've got enough for some killer pancakes in the kitchen if you wanna see Mags weep tears of joy.
[They've both had more than enough of emotions for the day. For all of the outbursts they've been through in the last month, the two honestly are gonna need at least a year to recharge after this. Give them a fucking break, Hadriel.
Lup lets Taako pull back, but she keeps their fingers twined together loosely, unable to let go completely yet. After that earlier admission, Lup knows things between them are the best that they've been since her arrival in this place. She can let go of Taako and she'll still feel his heartbeat in every breath she takes, read his body language in every flick of hair over his shoulder or every hint of a smile curling across his mouth. But even if she knows they're fully connected, she still wants to feel his palm beneath hers.
It isn't about worrying that they aren't the same people anymore or thinking that he's straying from her. She just likes being close to her brother. That's all. It's one of the best comforts she can find in Hadriel.
So with his hand in hers, Lup gleefully drags Taako towards their bedroom door, ready to throw it open and race him to the kitchen.] Let's blow his fucking mind, hun. Never too early to make Mags cry.
[They'll never be a point where he'd reject her hand. They're back. The month's been rough, and he's been gone and lost for so long. But she's back, so he is too. It'd feel like a fairytale if he gave a shit about any of that. Then again, a heartless man wandering for 10 years in search of something lost probably sounds like a great story to the person who doesn't have to live it.
He follows, ready to bolt and pull her along.]
Last one there has to do dishes!
[And they're off, hand in hand, knowing they'll get there together.]
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It's what Lup expected, honestly, and maybe it's even a little of what Lucretia deserves, but all of that is between her brother and her friend. After what he went through, Lup wouldn't dream of forcing the other woman on Taako so soon. Lucretia may hurt now, but he had to live years hurting alone. They'll figure it out in time. They can wait until Taako is ready.]
Taako, you know I'm not going anywhere, right? I may spend time over there, but this is my home. [Lup doesn't gesture to the room, she only squeezes his hand, right where their fingers are intertwined. He's her home.] I know you're only asking cause you want to move in your reaper boy-toy in my place, but it just isn't happening, bro. Lup is here to stay.
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But he snickers in response, hopefully proof enough that he's brushing off the seriousness of the question.]
Yeah, because Krav wants to be anywhere near the dick squad. No thanks.
[But he does keep their hands close. Fingers locked. The steady bridge between their beating hearts.]
You better be. 'Mm not losing you again. Especially to her.
[He won't let Lucretia build that wall again. He just won't.]
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You say that like I had a choice. [As if Lup would want to be anywhere else. Their new home is an absolute nightmare and she has adored almost every second of it.] But I'll add that to my list of ways to torment him in the future. Thanks.
[Lup settles against her twin and closes her eyes, focusing in on the familiarity that always rushes through her when he's nearby. His steady breathing, the beating of his heart, the warmth of his palm against hers. Lup loves Lucretia. Has never had a female friend she's been as closely intertwined with, both before their journey or during her time in Hadriel. And she hasn't experienced what she will in the future nor has she met the woman that Lucretia will inevitably become, but that doesn't change the fact they are family and she'd do just about anything for the other woman.
But even that love and loyalty doesn't stop the firmness of Lup's tone when she answers.]
You won't lose me again, Taako. Not to anyone, but especially not to her. I promise. She can't touch us.
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He can feel the emotion creeping up his throat, so he pulls back, chuckling at her quietly.]
Nobody can fuckin' touch us.
[He'll never let anyone do that again.]
C'mon. It's still early. Pretty sure we've got enough for some killer pancakes in the kitchen if you wanna see Mags weep tears of joy.
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Lup lets Taako pull back, but she keeps their fingers twined together loosely, unable to let go completely yet. After that earlier admission, Lup knows things between them are the best that they've been since her arrival in this place. She can let go of Taako and she'll still feel his heartbeat in every breath she takes, read his body language in every flick of hair over his shoulder or every hint of a smile curling across his mouth. But even if she knows they're fully connected, she still wants to feel his palm beneath hers.
It isn't about worrying that they aren't the same people anymore or thinking that he's straying from her. She just likes being close to her brother. That's all. It's one of the best comforts she can find in Hadriel.
So with his hand in hers, Lup gleefully drags Taako towards their bedroom door, ready to throw it open and race him to the kitchen.] Let's blow his fucking mind, hun. Never too early to make Mags cry.
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He follows, ready to bolt and pull her along.]
Last one there has to do dishes!
[And they're off, hand in hand, knowing they'll get there together.]